For the last few months, I have been idling away… yeah that is my excuse for not visiting the blog… would you believe it? I didn’t visit my own blog all this while… this is what I realized when I saw the faithful weekly reports in my mails… almost 50% of the hits on my blog were narcissistic visits by me from various computer terminals across the globe – from my home internet, the office, the client location, my house in Chennai whenever I went on weekends and every chance I get on any internet connection… though I don’t know what I was looking for visiting my blog so many times…
and then there were the other faithfuls – my regular readers who used to in their daily surfing route would pass by my blog, see that nothing is written as usual, and file it away for chat discussions to ask me why I have not put anything there… then a further drop in hits made me realize the these faithfuls had given up and were now bypassing it… one faithful even went to the extent of subscribing to my mail feed so that she could be saved the trouble of visiting it in vain and at the same time not making me feel sad that she dint read my blogs…
but even all this is was not good enough to make me stage a comeback… frankly I was running out of inspiration… for lack of better reason let’s assume that that is the reason… because I was definitely not getting screwed at work nor did I have someone like my girlfriend or relatives visiting me… fact is I don’t even have a girlfriend, and since I live in a small pigeon hole also called PGs in Bangalore, no relatives can visit me either…
so what have I been doing all this while… well absolutely nothing… and when you do absolutely nothing you feel like doing absolutely nothing and end up doing absolutely nothing… that does sound like I have accomplished what I had set out to do thereby achieving 100% on the to-do list… but when you set out to do absolutely nothing, absolutely nothing is what gets done… that is what this paragraph has conveyed – absolutely nothing…
this idle mind has not even been a devil’s workshop… on many days I had just felt like sleeping the day off and many times I have done exactly that! And the chunks of time were in such quanta that they did not warrant the start or execution of a new found hobby which was the easiest advice everyone gave when I cribbed to them that I had absolutely nothing to do… ok that is the last time I am using the word, words - actually, here.
but yes, on hindsight I did seem to have been busy for the time I have been out of the blogosphere… it is definitely not that I have been trying to find a new chair that is as comfy as my old one(as one of the faithfuls had pointed out in the comment section before finally writing me off), though that was also part of some odd jobs I have been doing… it is excuses that are as tiny as the achievements that we try to remember during our appraisals or while filling the awards and achievements section in our resumes… but small things nevertheless, they definitely translate to an excuse that actually did eat up my time…at least i like to put the blame on something that is like an excuse.
so, I think I will put those in here as soon as I manage to recollect them… some are actually funny, though it may not seem so while reading it… some are not funny, but again, as I know my readers, it will definitely make you happy (bloody sadists!!!) and that was to some extent a decent excuse as I did not seem to conveying what I wanted to convey on my blogs… I was actually losing some amount of the originality as well… even this title was borrowed from someone’s gtalk status message, and by a sudden stroke of, I would say genius, removed the ‘e’ and put a ‘y’…
anyways, I hope I am back.
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